To be honest, I don’t know what I’m doing. My emotions are so numb and I don’t know how I’m suppose to act. I don’t like hugs anymore. I can’t cry when I want to. It makes me uncomfortable when people cry around me. I have no empathy and sympathy for anyone and that really bothers me. But when I’m around babies, adolescence and the elderly I’m my old self. I love my friends but they don’t understand but it’s okay because they are trying and that’s all that matters. I try not to talk about my illness too much. I don’t want to make anybody uncomfortable so I save it for therapy and when I’m home I stay to myself. I’m not sure what to do and say anymore but I’m finding my way.