I’m torn between two people and I can’t decide which one I like the most. CJ is a guy that I’m use to, he’s my safety net. I can’t live without him. I can be myself, I’m not constantly trying to impress him. I talk he listens and I do the same for him. We like friends with benefits and the problem is he doesn’t want to be in a relationship with me. I’ve worked hard to change his mind but he doesn’t want it. So I continue my search. I’ve attempted to date others guys from dating app and when things doesn’t go so well I run back to CJ. I know it is not right but what am I suppose to do? He doesn’t go out with me we just chill at his house all the time. I’m tired of it.
On the other hand, I met Amos and he is awesome. We talk all the time and he like me for me. He is handsome with no kids but he is younger then me but he has a old soul. We loves each other’s company and I don’t feel insecure around him. He has a lot going for himself. We share the same values as me and it is just too good to be true. He doesn’t care that I’m bipolar and at the same time he doesn’t know that much about. Plus, I make sure I take my medicine so hopefully he doesn’t see me at my worst. He has a good job and his own place. He makes me feel special. I want to dive right in and not hold back but I’m scared. Not sure what to do.